Before I get started, I'd like to say that I started trying to loose weight a week ago with a confidential weight journal I bought from Amazon.com . It is a great book and in week one I've already lost two pounds, however I want to also write about it. I think it will keep me honest and accountable...As well as therapeutic.
*deep breath* Here I go....
You know how that saying goes? That one about how women are (or should be) made of sugar and spice and everything nice? Well, we're not, but I noticed we like eating those things that are made from sugar and spice....and oh you know the phrase I'm not going to repeat it. I noticed my guilty pleasure is eating things that are made with sugar and salt OR eating two things together made from sugar and salt. For example - pretzels and apples, apples and peanut butter...ooo, peanut butter.....pretzels and chocolate, popcorn and fruit (like an orange or an apple) etc. I sincerely hope it's a lot of women out there who like sugar and salty things because otherwise this is just embarrassing....
I'm a performer, dancing mainly, and one thing about someone who performs (dancers especially) lights and tights don't lie. I'm forty pounds overweight - yeah, that's a lot - and I want to change. I want to find solutions to the things that make me this way. Like problem number one - sweet and salty. It's ok to have the popcorn and fruit for a snack, that's actually healthy especially the way we make popcorn, but the chocolate and pretzels and the apple and peanut butter? I have to cut back. Apple and peanut butter alone is an easy 300 calorie snack (and that's just your average apple and 2 tablespoons of peanut butter). Snacks are...well, nice for when you're on the go and you don't have to time to make or sit and eat a meal. However, if you have breakfast (snack) lunch (snack) dinner (bedtime snack)....midnight cereal...that's when the calories add up and food isn't something that you are using to survive. Food becomes something else. Something you hate, yet can't stay away from.
It's going to be hard, but I want to make a pledge to you readers out there....and believe me, this is so incredibly hard for me to say because I know (really know not just metaphorically) people who would and probably will make fun of me for my weight and confessions.
I am 19 years old
And I am on a mission to overcome my addiction to food...and I have now become officially accountable to you.